Life's a mess.

13.03.07
11.37pm

life's a mess now. i dont know why i'm feeling this way. my feelings are running everywhere. i dont know how to keep track of it. holidays are so packed. ballet, camps, homework. barely have the time to go out and take a breather. im feeling so shit now. i sometimes wonder if what i thought would never happen to me ever again is happening once more. im so scared. i dont know what to expect. i dont wish to sink in deeper. but i cant help it. with all the guessings, i cant bring myself up from the whirlpool.

and i really have to start studying now. so many tests. geog especially. my only hope left. i shall go study now. i just hope what everyone thinks will be right. what if it isnt?

vivien.