My ballet marks.

15.07.07
5.16pm

okay. i'm downright disappointed in myself. i could have done better for my ballet grade six. this isnt the mark i wanted. 71. a good damn 4 more marks and i'll get a distinction, and another 1 mark to be the highest in class. shit. i expected more from myself. and what's worst, others seem to care more than you do. what can you say? "don't be upset anymore." i know there'd be nth else you could say. but i doubt you'll understand what kind of shit i'm going through right now. i guess it never did come to you how upset i'm feeling right now. what's with all the rotten luck in july? something's definitely going wrong. i think if i had a choice i'd just stay at home just to avoid the bad luck.

i know i can only make myself believe that you're tired. i don't want you to think so much in the weekends either, since its such a godly time for you to rest. i don't want to worry you. i know it wouldnt be nice for you to see this, but somehow i wish you'd read this. whatever. i'm just disappointed in everything that has been going on.

no pictures today, simply can't be bothered to upload any. damn.