NPDP Contingent 4

25.01.2008
10.04pm

I just reached home a few minutes ago & I'm hiding here to post. I'm glad I have a blog. At least I can confess everything here, & I feel better. I'm so tired of everything seriously.& Life's getting really tiring. & Ellie too, we're both so pissed with life. I think we needa get a life, but whatever. Somehow I wish dad can be a little more understanding, & maybe just leave me alone. It seriously sucks having him ask me about this & that when I'm totally drained out from training & school & everything that's been happening in my life. I know he's trying to show some concern but maybe I'd be better off left alone. I hope he can understand that. I think I'll just regret saying those nasty stuff up there but till then, I won't think about it.

Had our first NPDP training today.
NPDP: NPCC Day Parade.

Its an annual parade held in HTA to commemorate NPCC day, & a few cadets from each unit would be selected to participate. Trainings are twice/once a week, from 2-6pm. First training was expectedly tough, repeating drills over & over again. Maybe that's how people get perfect bangs etc. Sometimes its a little weird when they tell us things & don't expect us to move :\ But nevermind about that. They serve great food anyway, & I was totally shagged after today's training. I can almost faint now. & I feel like crying. I seriously needa put myself together.

I have live shooting tmr at Bukit Gombak. & I'm making love letters with Weiting tomorrow. I think I'll probably stop coming online from then. Until I feel much much better. I'm so tired with life man.

ELLIE AND I NEED A PSYCHATRIST.